moving out.
Its 4:30 AM, im back in #502 after unpapcking all my stuff at the new apartment. this place feels so empty and lonely - though i must say the new place looks so cozy now that all my stuff is in there (or atleast im psychologically disposed to feeling that way!! :)
although this was a great apartment, i feel like im dropping behind a lot of baggage - leaving me with this very clean, purged feeling. purged in what way? well...
1) ive dropped behind 14 kilos (wooohooo!!! though i did put on 8 of those here :P - nevertheless net losses = 6 kilos.. yay!)
2) i junked a lot of clothes over the past few weeks. now feel like i just have clothes and things i like, are usable and fit me (as opposed to loads of stuff that i dont need, dont like, dont fit into, and / or will never wear) - helps that the new place has only a smallish cupboard has to fit in everything. and its all fit in really well. also in my over enthu over the past few weeks, have made these stupid shoe boxes i use to keep randon stuff in look quite cool so its all very neat and nice :)
3) such a relief to junk all the stuff well past their expiry date! :D
4) also leaving with my hair 20 inches shorter - and all natural! :D
lots of other stuff thats really exciting, its weird that im looking forward to new house and new flatmates as a 25 year old! (feel like im 15)
what ill miss the most though is padma - the most awesome maid/housekeeper. shes awewsome! wonder what i can do for her that will mean anything... especially over the past few days while packing and unpacking she's told me the story of her life - and i feel so stupid for being such a loser after having had everything i could need.
sleepy. good night. welcome back me. :) (coming soon with new resolutions for a new house - with the first being 3 / week blogging)!
yay! it does work
and i'm back.. guess the only person celebrating, is me.. so yay! :)
a quick update..
i graduated (surprisingly) last week and am back at home and all its comforts for 6 whole weeks before i start work (my first proper job - doing shitty intern work does not count)
i did manage to get a job in a company i like.. except that the job is gonna take me far away from almost everyone ive known.. thats the bad part.. :(
two years ago when i left home, i didnt feel too bad coz i thought i was gonna come back to mumbai for sure.. i didnt think i was leaving behind friends and family for too long.. two years was nothing.. and time did fly that fast..
but now im headed to hyderabad (??!!??!!) for heaven knows how long.. i know nothing about the place, am nervous at the prospect of living alone (excited too, of course :-) cant really imagine myself doing grown up stuff like paying bills and employing a maid, cooking for myself and getting a paycheck (THAT im looking forward to :-D )
but basically, i cant imagine myself as a grown up.. seems like just yesterday i was at the iim indore gate on my first day and the guard asked me whether i was old enough to be a student there
"Madamji, aap toh bahut chote lagte ho.. yahan sab bade log aate hai! :P" (sure he wont be saying that now :P )
but, im sure i will be fine.. ive always been watched over very well :)
second year...
whats second year at iim i about?
for me,
its about this feeling of comfort and familiarity, knowing the campus in and out and still feeling lost among the sea of new faces...
its about learning for learnings sake and not coz i have to..
its about being so used to late nights and last minute submissions that panic attacks are down to an all time low...
its about knowing that i am in a position of responsibility where i can make a difference...
its about being so used to the people around me that they seem natural extensions to myself.. i honestly find it hard to remember a time i did not know them..
its about a whole bunch of erstwhile idiots suddenly seeming grown up and mature...
its about still making a lot of mistakes, but handling them a wee bit better...
its about thinking a lot, lot more about life and what i would like to do with it...
its about seeing the campus so beautiful and green in the rains and knowing that its probably for the last time that im gonna see this...
its about falling in love with a city i didnt care a tiny bit about less than 2 years ago..
its about lots lots more......
'm lovin' it!!
record...
just want to record the making of my first movie (nothing hi fi just moviemaker! :P), but im pretty kicked about it (and i think its come out quite ok! :D)
a fortunate few (:P) will get to watch it at the iim indore alumni meets all over the country on 27th...
this means, so far this summer i have designed/made (by designed i mean worked on it from scratch):
4 brochures
1.5 movies
1 newsletter
1 invitation
0.5 handbook
along with scores of templates, motivational notes (:P), ppts......
i think its a sign.... i think my career lies in media/design/advertising.....
why else would i get a
design job during my internship in a
bank as an
MBA student!
hmmmm....
summertime......
got into bombay about 4 weeks ago for summer and my internship - my first ever job stint.
this place is hot, sticky, dirty and traveling is bloody time consuming... but it's my city and i love it alright :)
started off on my summers on the 3rd and the fact that its only now that i've gotten the time to update my blog is an indication of the way things are going. busy as hell. have no time for anything. its been four weeks since ive started reading a really interesting book and cant read more than 2 pages a day before i fall asleep of pure exhaustion. and add to that, one fourth of these four weeks have been spent being ill coz of a combination of heat, traveling and overexhaustion...
whoever said MBA was hard work, s/he was definitely talking about the internship part of it!
on another note, the first wedding of our batch at iim indore will be this sunday. which is how i came to attend a
sangeet ceremony for the first time today. it was really nice. there was so much warmth and family feeling in everything taking place (knocking on wood here :) there were little dances that were put up by the family members right from the old aunties down to the little kids. and the groom and bride looked so happy to be getting married, it felt really nice being there :)
the first list of our
fachchas is out and its pretty entertaining to read their mails and questions.. entertaining just coz it reminds me of the kind of doubts and worries i had before i got there; only to realize none of it mattered (i remember asking some of our seniors how many sarees to carry along and whether i could get frozen food with me.... sheesh! : ).... in a way it makes me feel old. :( cant believe one more year and ill be out of the place...
more unbelivable (atleast to me) is the fact that due to a very unfortunate combination of circumstances, i will be finding myself pretty jobless in my second year... not doing iris, not doing utsaha... for the first time in my life, im facing a year with no major extra curricular activities planned... feels really strange... :(
fear
when you do something not because you want to do it/like doing it/have to do it but only because you're too scared of the absolutely ridiculous consequences of not having done it...
it loses all meaning
absolutely senseless it might seem.. but i had to get it out
also.. my hand is acting weird coz my back is acting weird.. as a consequence i cant type or write much...
also... i tend to make less sense with each passing minute when i'm up an entire night
:)
